Why am I not honoring my calendar?

While listening to a podcast about how we do not honor our commitments to ourselves, I realized that this podcast was speaking directly at me. I had to start writing this blog right then and there. I had already picked a topic but somehow this really resonated with me. It was as if I needed to hear this. Lately, I have not been accomplishing several things that I had set out to do for the day and then worrying that I had a deadline coming up. How crazy is that? I don’t do what I said I need to do, but then continue to worry later that I have not done the thing that needed to be done. Some of us can call it procrastinating. That is for a another topic. I am doing a paper now for my last class in psychology on procrastination and it is fascinating to learn all the reasons why we procrastinate. However, today I want to ponder why I seem to put things on my calendar all neat and pretty each Sunday but then there are several things I just blow off. No, I am not talking about having to reschedule due to life circumstances. I am referring to simply scheduling and not doing. Hmm. Sounds like an issue I have.

Do you usually do your list, tasks, or chores as planned? I seem to be very good at picking and choosing with no regard for why I had it on my calendar in the first place. I know that I would not put on the calendar just to be busy. No, I love days that I call free days or very little to-dos. House chores seem to be an issue lately. They seem to be getting blown off more often than others. These chores are put on the calendar because I enjoy an organized home. For instance, I was supposed to clean out a specific closet this week that was on my calendar on Tuesday and now it is Saturday and it is still not done. What is sad is that it’s been on my calendar three times before. Oops So, why do I keep blowing off? I am trying to use a little of my coaching and psychology training and need to think about how my primal brain is finding all the “feel good” stuff to do instead of these certain unexciting chores. Who wouldn’t rather scroll on Pinterest than cleaning out a closet or vacuum? However, we do seem to enjoy our homes more when they are neat, clean, and organized. It is a tradeoff. I need to focus more on my outcome! So, my pep talk this week is, if it is on my calendar and I choose not to do it, I am going to give myself grace for that day BUT it gets put on another day in the same week! I will report back to you.

Thanks for listening. I think I am coaching myself at this moment.

Have a beautiful day.